i lost my mom today

i have found that there is too much to say and no depths of words to say it. i am overwhelmed by the enormity of grief i feel not just for myself but for my brothers and our families. i have cried many tears today and have found that i can't cry enough; i have a broken heart. i am surprised by the flood of memories i've had and how it feels with mom's death i have lost my father all over again. i have no parents. who is going to love me like my mom ?